My Greatest Gift Is My Greatest Flaw
I have a lot of flaws, but if I had to choose my biggest one it would be my inability to avoid burnout. I’m not sure if I was born this way or if it was the fact that I’ve been involved in competitive athletics from the age of 4, but I’ve always operated with a massive amount of intensity and a sense of urgency.
I may not come across this way when you first meet me, but once you get to know me you’ll learn that I look at everything as a competition. I don’t care what it is, or who it’s against, I want to win and I want to win by so much that they never dare challenge me again.
This same mindset carries over to my business side and I believe that it’s the main reason that I’ve found success. I’m simply more driven and more willing to die for success than others.
At the same time, having no off switch consistently takes me to a place where I’m drained both mentally and physically with no way…or rather no desire to do anything about it. The way I see it is that the second I stop is the second I lose momentum and allow others to gain ground. These thoughts just increase my sense of urgency and push me even harder to overcome the “relax” signal that my body is giving me.
Work-life balance has always been difficult to me because I really don’t see a difference between the two. My work allows me to live the life that I want so they are correlated.
I really want to change, but I’m just too damn stubborn to do so. Every moment is “the moment” and I can rest when the games over coach. With that being said, I find it to be strange that my biggest gift is probably also my biggest flaw.